i just wanna thank god. really is him who pull me back. back into his dwelling place. guess what god use? media. amazed? i was amazed.
the night before ytd night, i just happen to tune the radio in my hp and i tuned to christian channel. they were speaking in chinese but i knew what they were talking about. they were taking about the important of reading the word of god. hahax. i was thinking,"god are you trying to tell me this?" i was already on my bed and thus, i ignore it and slept.
the next day, my dad just happen to turn to channel 5. at that time, i was attracted to a part when jap invaded singapore and i continue to watch the show. guess what? it's a life changing story of a pastor. he was a ex-convict, a murderer, an ah beng and his life is such a mess. he spend a lot of his youth time is jail. he also once said to a pastor who try to bring him back to god when he was in jail," i would rather stay in hell with all my friend than in heaven with you." he mocked at the pastor and the pastor sadly left. but god didn't leave this child of his alone. he chased after him. hoping to bring him back again. one day, while he was stucked in a all dark cell due to some thing bad he did, he rmb praying. he pray and pray until the 14th day. the door opened and he was able to get back to his normal cell. at that time, he rmb a hymm, psalm 23. he tried to find the verses but he couldn't so he felt helpless and threw the bible away. at this point of time, it flip to that page. "The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want".
I really see how god love his child. even His children did all sort of crimes or what, he still love them. not only, he would try to reach out to them. likewise, i saw how god try to reach out to me. i just wanna write this down because i'm afraid that one day, when i talk abt this, i'd see it as something normal. previously,i told him that i wanna have a testimonial that i knew it wasn't by me but god. indeed he proved it with my result. intially, i'm excited but slowly it faded. now, i just wanna write it down so that i wont forget. God reach out to me a lot of time but i realise that i was contented but slowly not. why? why am i so greedy?i wan a 180 change. help me!!!
during the time, i also found the conviction that christianity is not a religious but really relationship with god. i saw how god cherish the relation i had with him. thank you Father .
however, i realise that recently many people are feeling dry. i knew one was sad because one could not get into core team. well, i just wanna say, personally i feel that status is not important. if i'm pursuing a status, i'm still conform to the world. most important is the relationship with god. the great commandment "love your god with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and all your strength" indeed getting into core team can do far more for god but if god did not place you there, it doesn't you could not serve as much. there's a lot things you can do for KOG.
God, i thank you for touching my life making it bright again. thank you for your unfailing love. god, i pray that god that my walk with you would really be consistent and that i would be contented with what you blessed me. God, also grant me to alertness so that i would be fast in reaction. As for those who were experiencing this dryness in their heart, god i just wanna pray that god that you would reach out to them like how you did to me. water them oh lord. let them experience something new about you oh lord and let them find the purpose of serving you. father, i just want to commit them into your hands, may you bless them greatly. In Jesus name i pray. Amen!
Colours (My Essay) I was shopping alone in a shopping mall on a valentine day. My friends had left to meet her boyfriend a while ago, and I, a loner, sadly to say that I had to spend this valentine alone again. However as I was about to leave for home, I happened to pass by an ice cream shop. It was simply axiomatic that I salivated as my eyes sparkled at the mountain like dark chocolate ice cream that one customer had just bought. Initially I tried to ran away from the tempting voice of it, however being defeated to its power I was susceptible to it. I ordered the same ice cream as the previous customer and after that I went to look for a seat, waiting to be served by the waiter there. As my long awaited ice cream had “arrive”, I immediately took a first lick. The dark chocolate ice cream slowly melted upon entering the gates of my mouth. What a sense of ravishness flow through my whole body! In expeditious moments it was all right into my stomach and ready to be digested. After paying the bill, a waiter gave me a lucky draw form to fill in if in my form was chosen, I would win away a massage chair. I filled in the form incredulously as I knew I normally would not win such draws.
However, next month later, I was awestruck after I had received a letter saying that I had won away the massage chair. I was exhilarated and for the next moment, the door bell rang and it was right outside my doorstep.
When the entire chair, was fixed properly, I tried to read the instruction to know how it was operated. However, to my amazement, I saw something bizarre on one of the pages in the instruction book. It stated that “to go and see the future, press “x” with the number of year you want to go forward to”. I stood there flabbergasted as I had never seen or hear such invention in my whole entire lifetime. Therefore, in the midst of lava of fear and uncertainty, I tried it.
I thought of going to the future of fifty years later whereby I may see my own grandchildren and how my children would treat me. Hence, I press “X fifty”. Amazingly, at the next moment, the chair was swirling at a rapid velocity in circular motion. “Poof”, at the subsequent moment, I landed heavily on a different surrounding
I stood up, trying to remove all the dust on my back. Next, I looked around. To my horror, I realize I had landed on a colourless land but I still had colours on me. I walk around like a headless fly. Everywhere there was grey in colour even the resident there was like this. As I walk on the streets, people were looking at me as in I was an alien. However, whatever things they said, I could not hear. It is as if I was in a world on my own. I felt a sense of loneliness though I was walking in the crowd and thus I lost hope because I was clueless about how to go back home.
Just then, a light of hope shone into my way. In front of me, I saw a lady running towards me. Though she was half-coloured, I thought that perhaps she was someone that I could connect with. Indeed, I could hear where she said.
“Hello. Welcome to Elpizo! My name is Kim. What’s yours?” she introduced herself to me.
“Well, I…I’m Kay…la. May…May I know why I am able to hear you? I asked nervously.
“You don’t have to be afraid of me because I was a human being and I also took a try to get to the future and in the end, I landed here just like you.” She replied sorrowfully as she recalled about something unpleasant.
She requested to bring me around so I gladly accepted as I was finally not alone She told me that I had to be careful because in Elpizo, I would face lots of temptations to lure me to stay here forever and by that time, I would stuck there forever and I only had three hours to spend, and if I didn’t manage to get back to the original place where I fall at, I would also stuck here and became half-coloured if I wanted to get back but could not make it just like Kim.
“Though in fifty years later, the world will be called Elpizo which means hope in greek, it was not a place full of hope but sorrow. People will be selfish, inconsiderate, a liar and many more.” She described as she shook her head.
“Look at this guy.” she said as she pointed at an aged guy. He was an imbecile, doing all sorts of asinine actions such as lying down in the middle road just to gain people’s attention and once a crowd was formed, he would beg for money. I stood there and wonder why people would stop down to give him just a penny or something to eat. Kim told me that he was an orphan because his parents threw him at a rubbish chute since he was born.
Later, we walked past a gambling den. The advertisement board claimed “75% of winning. Do come in!” Out of curiosity and also of normal human’s desire to get richer, I pulled Kim who was reluctant to go in. However, before we went in, she warned me not to be involved in gambling. I promised her superficially but deep inside I knew I wanted to try.
Indeed, as I walked in, I attracted lots of attention from the people because of my colours. Feeling very uneasy, I tried to ignore them all. On one of gambling table, I saw a gambler who kept wining and the money that came was easy money and at the moment, I heard an evil voice whispering softly in my ear to give it a try. I thought that it had no harm trying as I kept telling myself that it was not that easy to get addicted. As I was about to give in to that tempting voice, Kim immediately pulled me out.
“Ouch! Hey stop! What are you doing? It’s hurt you know and I was only wanted to try once.” I yelled furiously at her.
“Once? Well, if you have the first time, it is likely to have it the second or third or more. I don’t want to see you end up stuck here like me. I want to go back and add on colours to the society. I want you to show love to people. I want you to be a salt and light and tell people that there is more to life than chasing all the riches in the world. I want to to tell people the importance of loving one another therefore, keep yourself away from this tempting voice and then you could go back safely but if you refused, it’s fine with me!” she reprimand so acrimoniously that I never ever saw someone was that mad before.
Feeling guilty-stricken, I apologized to her hoping that she would forgive me. In fact she really forgave me and urged me to go back to my real world as it was about the time. She brought to the original place where I landed.
“Can you see the handprint of that tree?” she asked with a serious tone.
I nodded my head and she continued “Place your hand there and you’ll be back home. Here’s a small souvenir for you. Open it after you reached home safely.”
I looked at her speechless because I really did not what I could say to express my gratitude towards her. Hence, I walked towards the tree trying not to turn back because I knew if I did, I would not bear to leave. However, I just could not control my body. I turned around running towards this new friend of mine and hug her. Thought it was only a short period of time, I could learn many things from her. Tears streamed down hysterically. No choice but to leave. I walked back towards the tree again and placed my hand gently on the handprint.
For the next moment, I was swirling at a rapid velocity in circular motion again but this time, my destination was home. I opened my eyes. Indeed, I was home. I thought perhaps it was a dream but I could not deny the fact that a gift given by Kim was on my hand. I opened it. It was a paint brush with four words “Add colours, show love!”
(1466words)
just finish a brother blog. sometimes when i read his blog, i feel quite inspired by the way he wrote his blog. he wrote as if he's writing a compo or a novel about his life. why do i say so? well, look at this paragraph, "The heart beat accelerated each moment i displaced my foot towards nexus.Thoughts were dashing in and out each moment.Splatters of trust and hope englufed within the midst of lava of fear and uncertainty.Choose not to be subdued by it, i stood firmly on what was right."
Well, basically he's saying he was excited for service and there's a non believer with him. well, for most of us, we wouldn't describe the feeling when we stepped into nexus and if we really would, we may just use a ordinary and simple words to just write such as "I am excited!". duh. obviously who would use such big words and lots of good description just to describe his feeling on a blog. For most of us, blogging is just an online diary. it's not an school compo or what so we wouldn't use such words or description.
that's well, when i read his blog, sometimes i find it hard to read because i have to check the dictionary to understand the meaning. though it may seems hard but i think it's very good for his english. if not wrong, i think he english for N level is a2. a2 you know? i don't even know if i could get that grade in my whole entire life. indeed, he improved his english by blogging i guess. well, if one day i could write like how he wrote, my english would definitely be a distinction. hahaha. hMm. that day will definitely come. hee.=)
not only about how he wrote his blog, but also about his walk with god. he walk so closely with god and me? well, inconsistence! when can i really have this consistence walk with god lehx? i rmb one qt i ask god if i could be at least 1/8 of king david. hahahax. i also dunno when i chose 1/8. king david is someone who really walk so close with god and i just hope that i could be like this as well. haix.
oh ya. bought a new hp on fri. Sony Ericsson k750i. to me, it's an "wulu" phone because i nv see that phone before. but who knows it turn out to be a popular phone. it seems like i'm an mountain tortise. well, at first i wanted to buy an walkman phone and my mum saw this phone at M1 and thought it was around hundred plus. she didn't see a trade in sign below the poster so she ask if i wanna buy. i check the function and wonder it couldn't be so cheap so i check the price again and it turned out to be $300 plus. more expensive than the walkman phone.
after that we went to starhub where there are cheaper phone. the service there was not bad. we were served by a young guy. thank god that this guy is have patience because as you all know, i'm very indecisive. yupz. the walkman phone there cost $288. i checked the phone and i tht it was heavy so my mum suggested to look at the K75i. he helped me to compare these two phone and he thinks that K750i is much more better but i didn't make the decision immediately. i cant make up my mind so i told him that i'll come back again.
so when i came back, praise god. no people at his counter so i don't have to wait. well, so i decide to bought K750i and guess what? another headache problem came up. i have to choose a new hp number. all the number were orh piang. all start with 8180. so many 8s. if i could get 8a's, it is then i wont find 8 orh piang. lolx.
hMm.. going offline soon. oh ya jeslin and florence and family getting water baptise tml or shld i say today? so good rite? i will nv have this chance again because i'm already water baptised!!!but really prayed hard that i will witness my parents or any family water baptism one day. that day will definitely come rite heavenly father?
rayna(",)
This blog is special as i wanted to air out something personal.DO NOT READOR FIND OUUT WHAT I WROTE.PLEASERESPECT MY DECISION.dont worry. it's not about anyone so you don have to wonder if i'm talking about you.
well, honestly, i just feel down down down and down. spirually down i mean. well, i just feel i'm a walking flesh but deep inside, i all sucked up by certain things and i dunno what's that. just feel that i'm dry inside. i dunno is it a spiritual dryness or what but ... few weeks ago, one night i was struck with a question:" what's makes me continue to stay?" basically, for many people who stayed quite long, they would say god. but if i really followed and never try to find out the answer to that question, i would be lying to god and to myself. not only this, it's a new year (though more than 2 months has passed) and it would be a good time to evaluate on myself. moreover, my 2year spiritual bdae is coming so it would be a good time also to evalute my 2 years in church and find out the purpose of staying. honestly, i've not found out the answer. during the funeral, christianity at that time no longer is a relationship with god but it seems to be a religion. a religion that i wouldn't hope that i'd b in. i dunno why. but that's trigger me to be dry as a dried chilli. i really hope to get back the relationship with god and i really dun wanna be in a religion because it's really suck out my life. it's a rule and regulation thingy and i dun wan it to be like this. god help me. get me back to side once again.if not perhaps one day i may fall away.....
THE BRIDGE [Based on a true story]
THE BRIDGE [Based on a true story]
A switchman sat in a small shack on one side of the river where he operated the controls to turn the bridge and lock it into place when a train crossed.
One evening, as the switchman was waiting for the light of the day to come, he looked off into the distance through the dim twilight and caught sight of the train lights. He stepped to the controls and waited until the train was within a prescribed distance within the bridge. He turned the bridge into position, but, to his horror, he found out that the locking control did not work. If the bridge was not securely in position, it would wobble back and forth at the ends when the train came on to it, causing the train to jump the track and crash into the river. This would be a passenger train with many people aboard.
He then hurried across bridge into the other side of the river where there was a lever switch that could manually operate the lock to hold the bridge stable but he would have to hold the switch back firmly as the train crossed.
He could hear the rumble of the train now. He took hold of the lever and kept applying the pressure to keep mechanism locked. Many lives depended on this man’s strength.
Then, coming across the bridge from the direction of his control room, he heard a sound made his blood run cold.
“Daddy, where are you?”
His four-year-old son was crossing the bridge to look for him. His first impulse was to cry out to the child, “Run! Run!”
But the train was close; the tiny legs would never make it across the bridge in time.
He almost left his lever to run and snatch up his son and carry him but he realized that he would not be able to get back to the lever in time. Either the people on the train or his little son must die.
He took a moment to make his decision. The train sped safely about, on its way, and no one aboard was even aware if the tiny broken body, thrown mercilessly into the river by the onrushing train. Nor were they aware of the pitiful figure if the sobbing man, still clinging tightly to the locking lever long after the train had passes. They did not see him walk home more slowly than he had ever walked: to tell his wife how the child had brutally died.
Now if you comprehend the emotions which went through this man’s heart, you can begin to understand the feelings of our Father in Heaven when He allowed His Son to bridge the gap between us and eternal life.
copy from ec3 blog wrote it there but lazy write it again.:
that day, the teacher gave out the result according to classes so the 4a people who is the first class in sec 4 got their result first. a lot people came back with a b3. and they were those who always score very well for their mt and always listen in class and always do their hwk so at their moment, i was really scared because as you all know, i'm an extra slacker in class esp in mt class. i hardly listen to the teacher talk one and hardly or had nv hand in my hwk on time one. and if i really hand in my work, it's copied from my friend's hwk. so do you think i this kind of person can get a1? well, obviously not! but i really want an a1 so at that moment, i prayed and tell god i really want but how arh?
then when the teacher call my name, i made a mistake. i went to the wrong teacher to take a result. the teacher is actually calling junjie. dotz. then i went to another teacher so she smiled at me and ask me to guess my result. before i wanna say b4, she said congratz! so i look at it and saw a one! i check again. indeed the word beside the word is A. i imediately jumped and say praise god. i dun care if ppl had heard me or not but that's nth to be ashamed of because it's really god!
i went back to my seat and my friend ask if my oral have distinction. at first i dunno cos i nv see the oral part. so i told her it's impossible for my oral to get a distinction because during the oral i forget what is police called in chinese so i told the teacher "the security guard is taking a gun patrolling in the mrt station" in chinese. it's ultra stupid to forget what police is called so i tht i wouldn't get a distinction for sure. who's knows, another miracle. i really got a distinction. praise god!
well, i rmb the night before or few days ago, i ask god how come i nv really experience you in a form of blessing.(i dunno if i've phrase correctly) because ppl can say an inspiring testimony but i dun think i reallly have any lehx. so i ask god to give me one incident so that i can share. wow. fast rite. haha. i was amazed by how god works lohx. haha
oh yah, just wanna welcome geck ting to the family of god. she came hope countless time liao and had nv receive christ until ytd. well, during alter call, i prayed that the holy spirit would really touched her and when i opened my eyes, i saw yanyu and joleen hugging her. praise god.well, to geck ting, if you see this, once again welcome to the family of god. may we can be friends that last eternity=)
and last word. god will answer prayer but it's the matter of time and is it beneficial or not.=)
signing off....
hello. i think i nv blog for one month le. hee. lazy blog.
well, today i din go school. feeling a bit feverish. sianz. go polyclinic have to wait for 1 hr then can see doctor. go in see doctor is less than 5 min. lame rite? wait so long just for the 5min. lol
Hmm. dunno what to write liao.. haix.. go watch campus superstar le..tataz
Saturday, February 25, 2006
the dryness in my soul in coming into an end.
i just wanna thank god. really is him who pull me back. back into his dwelling place. guess what god use? media. amazed? i was amazed.
the night before ytd night, i just happen to tune the radio in my hp and i tuned to christian channel. they were speaking in chinese but i knew what they were talking about. they were taking about the important of reading the word of god. hahax. i was thinking,"god are you trying to tell me this?" i was already on my bed and thus, i ignore it and slept.
the next day, my dad just happen to turn to channel 5. at that time, i was attracted to a part when jap invaded singapore and i continue to watch the show. guess what? it's a life changing story of a pastor. he was a ex-convict, a murderer, an ah beng and his life is such a mess. he spend a lot of his youth time is jail. he also once said to a pastor who try to bring him back to god when he was in jail," i would rather stay in hell with all my friend than in heaven with you." he mocked at the pastor and the pastor sadly left. but god didn't leave this child of his alone. he chased after him. hoping to bring him back again. one day, while he was stucked in a all dark cell due to some thing bad he did, he rmb praying. he pray and pray until the 14th day. the door opened and he was able to get back to his normal cell. at that time, he rmb a hymm, psalm 23. he tried to find the verses but he couldn't so he felt helpless and threw the bible away. at this point of time, it flip to that page. "The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want".
I really see how god love his child. even His children did all sort of crimes or what, he still love them. not only, he would try to reach out to them. likewise, i saw how god try to reach out to me. i just wanna write this down because i'm afraid that one day, when i talk abt this, i'd see it as something normal. previously,i told him that i wanna have a testimonial that i knew it wasn't by me but god. indeed he proved it with my result. intially, i'm excited but slowly it faded. now, i just wanna write it down so that i wont forget. God reach out to me a lot of time but i realise that i was contented but slowly not. why? why am i so greedy?i wan a 180 change. help me!!!
during the time, i also found the conviction that christianity is not a religious but really relationship with god. i saw how god cherish the relation i had with him. thank you Father .
however, i realise that recently many people are feeling dry. i knew one was sad because one could not get into core team. well, i just wanna say, personally i feel that status is not important. if i'm pursuing a status, i'm still conform to the world. most important is the relationship with god. the great commandment "love your god with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and all your strength" indeed getting into core team can do far more for god but if god did not place you there, it doesn't you could not serve as much. there's a lot things you can do for KOG.
God, i thank you for touching my life making it bright again. thank you for your unfailing love. god, i pray that god that my walk with you would really be consistent and that i would be contented with what you blessed me. God, also grant me to alertness so that i would be fast in reaction. As for those who were experiencing this dryness in their heart, god i just wanna pray that god that you would reach out to them like how you did to me. water them oh lord. let them experience something new about you oh lord and let them find the purpose of serving you. father, i just want to commit them into your hands, may you bless them greatly. In Jesus name i pray. Amen!
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Colours (My Essay) I was shopping alone in a shopping mall on a valentine day. My friends had left to meet her boyfriend a while ago, and I, a loner, sadly to say that I had to spend this valentine alone again. However as I was about to leave for home, I happened to pass by an ice cream shop. It was simply axiomatic that I salivated as my eyes sparkled at the mountain like dark chocolate ice cream that one customer had just bought. Initially I tried to ran away from the tempting voice of it, however being defeated to its power I was susceptible to it. I ordered the same ice cream as the previous customer and after that I went to look for a seat, waiting to be served by the waiter there. As my long awaited ice cream had “arrive”, I immediately took a first lick. The dark chocolate ice cream slowly melted upon entering the gates of my mouth. What a sense of ravishness flow through my whole body! In expeditious moments it was all right into my stomach and ready to be digested. After paying the bill, a waiter gave me a lucky draw form to fill in if in my form was chosen, I would win away a massage chair. I filled in the form incredulously as I knew I normally would not win such draws.
However, next month later, I was awestruck after I had received a letter saying that I had won away the massage chair. I was exhilarated and for the next moment, the door bell rang and it was right outside my doorstep.
When the entire chair, was fixed properly, I tried to read the instruction to know how it was operated. However, to my amazement, I saw something bizarre on one of the pages in the instruction book. It stated that “to go and see the future, press “x” with the number of year you want to go forward to”. I stood there flabbergasted as I had never seen or hear such invention in my whole entire lifetime. Therefore, in the midst of lava of fear and uncertainty, I tried it.
I thought of going to the future of fifty years later whereby I may see my own grandchildren and how my children would treat me. Hence, I press “X fifty”. Amazingly, at the next moment, the chair was swirling at a rapid velocity in circular motion. “Poof”, at the subsequent moment, I landed heavily on a different surrounding
I stood up, trying to remove all the dust on my back. Next, I looked around. To my horror, I realize I had landed on a colourless land but I still had colours on me. I walk around like a headless fly. Everywhere there was grey in colour even the resident there was like this. As I walk on the streets, people were looking at me as in I was an alien. However, whatever things they said, I could not hear. It is as if I was in a world on my own. I felt a sense of loneliness though I was walking in the crowd and thus I lost hope because I was clueless about how to go back home.
Just then, a light of hope shone into my way. In front of me, I saw a lady running towards me. Though she was half-coloured, I thought that perhaps she was someone that I could connect with. Indeed, I could hear where she said.
“Hello. Welcome to Elpizo! My name is Kim. What’s yours?” she introduced herself to me.
“Well, I…I’m Kay…la. May…May I know why I am able to hear you? I asked nervously.
“You don’t have to be afraid of me because I was a human being and I also took a try to get to the future and in the end, I landed here just like you.” She replied sorrowfully as she recalled about something unpleasant.
She requested to bring me around so I gladly accepted as I was finally not alone She told me that I had to be careful because in Elpizo, I would face lots of temptations to lure me to stay here forever and by that time, I would stuck there forever and I only had three hours to spend, and if I didn’t manage to get back to the original place where I fall at, I would also stuck here and became half-coloured if I wanted to get back but could not make it just like Kim.
“Though in fifty years later, the world will be called Elpizo which means hope in greek, it was not a place full of hope but sorrow. People will be selfish, inconsiderate, a liar and many more.” She described as she shook her head.
“Look at this guy.” she said as she pointed at an aged guy. He was an imbecile, doing all sorts of asinine actions such as lying down in the middle road just to gain people’s attention and once a crowd was formed, he would beg for money. I stood there and wonder why people would stop down to give him just a penny or something to eat. Kim told me that he was an orphan because his parents threw him at a rubbish chute since he was born.
Later, we walked past a gambling den. The advertisement board claimed “75% of winning. Do come in!” Out of curiosity and also of normal human’s desire to get richer, I pulled Kim who was reluctant to go in. However, before we went in, she warned me not to be involved in gambling. I promised her superficially but deep inside I knew I wanted to try.
Indeed, as I walked in, I attracted lots of attention from the people because of my colours. Feeling very uneasy, I tried to ignore them all. On one of gambling table, I saw a gambler who kept wining and the money that came was easy money and at the moment, I heard an evil voice whispering softly in my ear to give it a try. I thought that it had no harm trying as I kept telling myself that it was not that easy to get addicted. As I was about to give in to that tempting voice, Kim immediately pulled me out.
“Ouch! Hey stop! What are you doing? It’s hurt you know and I was only wanted to try once.” I yelled furiously at her.
“Once? Well, if you have the first time, it is likely to have it the second or third or more. I don’t want to see you end up stuck here like me. I want to go back and add on colours to the society. I want you to show love to people. I want you to be a salt and light and tell people that there is more to life than chasing all the riches in the world. I want to to tell people the importance of loving one another therefore, keep yourself away from this tempting voice and then you could go back safely but if you refused, it’s fine with me!” she reprimand so acrimoniously that I never ever saw someone was that mad before.
Feeling guilty-stricken, I apologized to her hoping that she would forgive me. In fact she really forgave me and urged me to go back to my real world as it was about the time. She brought to the original place where I landed.
“Can you see the handprint of that tree?” she asked with a serious tone.
I nodded my head and she continued “Place your hand there and you’ll be back home. Here’s a small souvenir for you. Open it after you reached home safely.”
I looked at her speechless because I really did not what I could say to express my gratitude towards her. Hence, I walked towards the tree trying not to turn back because I knew if I did, I would not bear to leave. However, I just could not control my body. I turned around running towards this new friend of mine and hug her. Thought it was only a short period of time, I could learn many things from her. Tears streamed down hysterically. No choice but to leave. I walked back towards the tree again and placed my hand gently on the handprint.
For the next moment, I was swirling at a rapid velocity in circular motion again but this time, my destination was home. I opened my eyes. Indeed, I was home. I thought perhaps it was a dream but I could not deny the fact that a gift given by Kim was on my hand. I opened it. It was a paint brush with four words “Add colours, show love!”
(1466words)
Saturday, February 18, 2006
just finish a brother blog. sometimes when i read his blog, i feel quite inspired by the way he wrote his blog. he wrote as if he's writing a compo or a novel about his life. why do i say so? well, look at this paragraph, "The heart beat accelerated each moment i displaced my foot towards nexus.Thoughts were dashing in and out each moment.Splatters of trust and hope englufed within the midst of lava of fear and uncertainty.Choose not to be subdued by it, i stood firmly on what was right."
Well, basically he's saying he was excited for service and there's a non believer with him. well, for most of us, we wouldn't describe the feeling when we stepped into nexus and if we really would, we may just use a ordinary and simple words to just write such as "I am excited!". duh. obviously who would use such big words and lots of good description just to describe his feeling on a blog. For most of us, blogging is just an online diary. it's not an school compo or what so we wouldn't use such words or description.
that's well, when i read his blog, sometimes i find it hard to read because i have to check the dictionary to understand the meaning. though it may seems hard but i think it's very good for his english. if not wrong, i think he english for N level is a2. a2 you know? i don't even know if i could get that grade in my whole entire life. indeed, he improved his english by blogging i guess. well, if one day i could write like how he wrote, my english would definitely be a distinction. hahaha. hMm. that day will definitely come. hee.=)
not only about how he wrote his blog, but also about his walk with god. he walk so closely with god and me? well, inconsistence! when can i really have this consistence walk with god lehx? i rmb one qt i ask god if i could be at least 1/8 of king david. hahahax. i also dunno when i chose 1/8. king david is someone who really walk so close with god and i just hope that i could be like this as well. haix.
oh ya. bought a new hp on fri. Sony Ericsson k750i. to me, it's an "wulu" phone because i nv see that phone before. but who knows it turn out to be a popular phone. it seems like i'm an mountain tortise. well, at first i wanted to buy an walkman phone and my mum saw this phone at M1 and thought it was around hundred plus. she didn't see a trade in sign below the poster so she ask if i wanna buy. i check the function and wonder it couldn't be so cheap so i check the price again and it turned out to be $300 plus. more expensive than the walkman phone.
after that we went to starhub where there are cheaper phone. the service there was not bad. we were served by a young guy. thank god that this guy is have patience because as you all know, i'm very indecisive. yupz. the walkman phone there cost $288. i checked the phone and i tht it was heavy so my mum suggested to look at the K75i. he helped me to compare these two phone and he thinks that K750i is much more better but i didn't make the decision immediately. i cant make up my mind so i told him that i'll come back again.
so when i came back, praise god. no people at his counter so i don't have to wait. well, so i decide to bought K750i and guess what? another headache problem came up. i have to choose a new hp number. all the number were orh piang. all start with 8180. so many 8s. if i could get 8a's, it is then i wont find 8 orh piang. lolx.
hMm.. going offline soon. oh ya jeslin and florence and family getting water baptise tml or shld i say today? so good rite? i will nv have this chance again because i'm already water baptised!!!but really prayed hard that i will witness my parents or any family water baptism one day. that day will definitely come rite heavenly father?
rayna(",)
Thursday, February 16, 2006
This blog is special as i wanted to air out something personal.DO NOT READOR FIND OUUT WHAT I WROTE.PLEASERESPECT MY DECISION.dont worry. it's not about anyone so you don have to wonder if i'm talking about you.
well, honestly, i just feel down down down and down. spirually down i mean. well, i just feel i'm a walking flesh but deep inside, i all sucked up by certain things and i dunno what's that. just feel that i'm dry inside. i dunno is it a spiritual dryness or what but ... few weeks ago, one night i was struck with a question:" what's makes me continue to stay?" basically, for many people who stayed quite long, they would say god. but if i really followed and never try to find out the answer to that question, i would be lying to god and to myself. not only this, it's a new year (though more than 2 months has passed) and it would be a good time to evaluate on myself. moreover, my 2year spiritual bdae is coming so it would be a good time also to evalute my 2 years in church and find out the purpose of staying. honestly, i've not found out the answer. during the funeral, christianity at that time no longer is a relationship with god but it seems to be a religion. a religion that i wouldn't hope that i'd b in. i dunno why. but that's trigger me to be dry as a dried chilli. i really hope to get back the relationship with god and i really dun wanna be in a religion because it's really suck out my life. it's a rule and regulation thingy and i dun wan it to be like this. god help me. get me back to side once again.if not perhaps one day i may fall away.....
THE BRIDGE [Based on a true story]
THE BRIDGE [Based on a true story]
A switchman sat in a small shack on one side of the river where he operated the controls to turn the bridge and lock it into place when a train crossed.
One evening, as the switchman was waiting for the light of the day to come, he looked off into the distance through the dim twilight and caught sight of the train lights. He stepped to the controls and waited until the train was within a prescribed distance within the bridge. He turned the bridge into position, but, to his horror, he found out that the locking control did not work. If the bridge was not securely in position, it would wobble back and forth at the ends when the train came on to it, causing the train to jump the track and crash into the river. This would be a passenger train with many people aboard.
He then hurried across bridge into the other side of the river where there was a lever switch that could manually operate the lock to hold the bridge stable but he would have to hold the switch back firmly as the train crossed.
He could hear the rumble of the train now. He took hold of the lever and kept applying the pressure to keep mechanism locked. Many lives depended on this man’s strength.
Then, coming across the bridge from the direction of his control room, he heard a sound made his blood run cold.
“Daddy, where are you?”
His four-year-old son was crossing the bridge to look for him. His first impulse was to cry out to the child, “Run! Run!”
But the train was close; the tiny legs would never make it across the bridge in time.
He almost left his lever to run and snatch up his son and carry him but he realized that he would not be able to get back to the lever in time. Either the people on the train or his little son must die.
He took a moment to make his decision. The train sped safely about, on its way, and no one aboard was even aware if the tiny broken body, thrown mercilessly into the river by the onrushing train. Nor were they aware of the pitiful figure if the sobbing man, still clinging tightly to the locking lever long after the train had passes. They did not see him walk home more slowly than he had ever walked: to tell his wife how the child had brutally died.
Now if you comprehend the emotions which went through this man’s heart, you can begin to understand the feelings of our Father in Heaven when He allowed His Son to bridge the gap between us and eternal life.
Sunday, February 12, 2006
copy from ec3 blog wrote it there but lazy write it again.:
that day, the teacher gave out the result according to classes so the 4a people who is the first class in sec 4 got their result first. a lot people came back with a b3. and they were those who always score very well for their mt and always listen in class and always do their hwk so at their moment, i was really scared because as you all know, i'm an extra slacker in class esp in mt class. i hardly listen to the teacher talk one and hardly or had nv hand in my hwk on time one. and if i really hand in my work, it's copied from my friend's hwk. so do you think i this kind of person can get a1? well, obviously not! but i really want an a1 so at that moment, i prayed and tell god i really want but how arh?
then when the teacher call my name, i made a mistake. i went to the wrong teacher to take a result. the teacher is actually calling junjie. dotz. then i went to another teacher so she smiled at me and ask me to guess my result. before i wanna say b4, she said congratz! so i look at it and saw a one! i check again. indeed the word beside the word is A. i imediately jumped and say praise god. i dun care if ppl had heard me or not but that's nth to be ashamed of because it's really god!
i went back to my seat and my friend ask if my oral have distinction. at first i dunno cos i nv see the oral part. so i told her it's impossible for my oral to get a distinction because during the oral i forget what is police called in chinese so i told the teacher "the security guard is taking a gun patrolling in the mrt station" in chinese. it's ultra stupid to forget what police is called so i tht i wouldn't get a distinction for sure. who's knows, another miracle. i really got a distinction. praise god!
well, i rmb the night before or few days ago, i ask god how come i nv really experience you in a form of blessing.(i dunno if i've phrase correctly) because ppl can say an inspiring testimony but i dun think i reallly have any lehx. so i ask god to give me one incident so that i can share. wow. fast rite. haha. i was amazed by how god works lohx. haha
oh yah, just wanna welcome geck ting to the family of god. she came hope countless time liao and had nv receive christ until ytd. well, during alter call, i prayed that the holy spirit would really touched her and when i opened my eyes, i saw yanyu and joleen hugging her. praise god.well, to geck ting, if you see this, once again welcome to the family of god. may we can be friends that last eternity=)
and last word. god will answer prayer but it's the matter of time and is it beneficial or not.=)
signing off....
Monday, February 06, 2006
hello. i think i nv blog for one month le. hee. lazy blog.
well, today i din go school. feeling a bit feverish. sianz. go polyclinic have to wait for 1 hr then can see doctor. go in see doctor is less than 5 min. lame rite? wait so long just for the 5min. lol
Hmm. dunno what to write liao.. haix.. go watch campus superstar le..tataz
