haha.

I've just finished watch some episode of goong.

Two word to describe

=D

I've got back my report book today.
Well, it wasn't as bad as I've expected.
Though L1R5 was not good enough for a JC,
but at least I've improved a lot.
Thank God for that=D

Also, when Hsinyi saw her results, she was still quite happy with her results and somehow believed that God is real.
Finally!!
Hope this faith wouldn't died down.
haha.

today's post was indeed short.
going to watch goong now.
bye~

-renn-

I witness someone's salvation today.
To me, it is kind of spercial because i'm not witnessing a youth nor an adult's salvation,
but a seven years old child.
Yup. Today, I went to Hope Kids with Joyce, Sally and their cousin, Jowelle.
Initially, I was quite shocked to see a seven years old child with a handphone.
This is something which I wouldn't carry which I won't have when I was that age.
The world is changing fast but anyway, that's not the main point.
Back to the main point, Jowelle received Christ not because of people forcing her but it is really out of her child-liked faith.
She knows what she is doing and she knows what the prayer is.
While on our way home, to ensure that she knows about her salvation, we asked questions such as "Where is Jesus?" and she replied, "Jesus is in my heart."
We also asked if she's a christian and she replied, "Yes, I received Him today!"
She even said that she wants a bible.
haha. such child-liked faith amazed me.

Anyway, the kids "service" was interesting.
Their service is not really like the youth.
It is more like a big care group.
They have a system of earning points to ensure that those kids particpate actively in the whole service.
I do see that some kids really enjoying themselves including Jowelle.
They also had praise and worship like we do.
Just that they used keyboard and electric guitar only.
Also, they have games when they start everything.
Oh ya, their sermon is not called a sermon.
It is a lesson time.
haha.
The atmosphere there is totally different of youth service.
If you can, bring a kid here and experience that difference yourself!=D

-renn-

rayna back here again=).

tell you something.
you may know it;
you may not know it;
you may believe it;
you may not believe.
all i want to say is that NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR MY GOD=)

i had my caregroup meeting today.
initially we are supposed to relax at the pasir ris park.
however, yin lin lost her mp3, thus we have to go back to the interchange to find it.
frankly speaking, i doubted that it could be found because she dont even know where and when the mp3 was missing.
what amazes me was yinlin's attitude.
though at such panicking situation, she still remained positive.
the caregroup prayed for her.
seriously, i dont know what i can do in this kind of situation except praying.
hence, on the way, i prayed but deep within, i still have a little doubt.
but god reminded me to have faith and hold onto his promises.
when we reached the bus interchange, we tried to find at the place we used to sit before setting off to the park but to no avail.
however, miraculously, a sales promoter approached us to ask if we are looking for a mp3!!
indeed, the mp3 belongs to yin lin.
amazing!~
indeed, god is faithful.
all we need is to have faith!

"He replied,"Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you" -Matt 17 :20-

-renn-

kinda pissed off today.
simply hate people who didn't turn up and yet didn't inform earlier and i had to go find the person.
also, this irresponsible way isn't the first time already.
thus, i was super pissed off.

Anyway, today i had an dental appointment at NUH.
First time going there, i felt excited yet at the same time worried because i'm going to a place where i have not been before alone.
I was afraid that i would get lost.
indeed, i nearly lost in the hospital
NUH is really BIG.
there are so many department so i had to ask for directions.
What most people gave was "Go Straight.. turn left"
haha.
kinda funny because i followed what they said.
and when i reached a new place, other said the same thing.
well, the checking of teeth was swiftly done but the price was rather high.

Finally, in the waiting list of puttin on braces.
I'm quite excited and anticipate the day to put on braces to come.
haha.

-renn-

i've got back most of my papers.
well, all i have to say is that i didn't do quite well but at least it's better than mid year.
so far, flunk two subject- english and combine humanities.
but i supposed i'd pass my overall for english. Hope so.

blog surfing just now.
this person never fail to amazed me with his style of writing and the way he thinks.
He wrote about expectations.
This is something which is quite relevant to me at this point of time when i'm getting back my results.
I see people brooding over their results, people sad over their result, people happy over their results.
when their results are good, i understand the joy they had.
when their results are bad, i understand the disapointment they had.
however, something which buffled me is that at times even if their results are good, they are still moody.
Perhaps, their expectations have been lifted at that moment of time.
I had to admit that sometimes, i'm one of the culprit.
I think that this is human's carnal nature of never contended for what we have.

At times, we do have to realign our focus back to the creator.
We have to live like we are living for an audience of one.
I know it's easier said than done.
I admit that i do care of the way people think of me but i do want to change to be always contented of what i have.

"There are many expectations in our lives, may it be internal or external, but we ought not to be dictated by such standards. Having too many expectations, will stretched oneself to the vertices."

simply agree with it as it so real in life.
we ought to be contended with what we have and not compared with others.
Again, easier said than done.
You may say the world is changing fast and if dont work harder, you will lag behind.
It is not wrong for working harder but there is something wrong when you said you didn't work hard when you actually did.

At times, it can be hard to be contented when expectations are met.
perhaps, at this time, we should lower our expections and think of way to improve instead of grumbling.
When expectation met, we should not grumble but be contented, yet at the same times, look through mistakes so that the same mistakes would not be made again.

"But godliness with great contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it." - 1 Timothy 6:6-7

-renn-

an interesting email from cheryl.

hope this encourages those who are still taking exams.

Jia You!

Author Unknown

i've got back some of my premlim paper.
well, not so good but so far, it's better than mid year.
praise god!

morning, i realised of how faithful god is in keeping His promises.
something which i used to believe when i'm looking for my first sheep
is that God will make me fruitful like Abraham.
indeed, when i was about to step down,
god used to me reach out to my ex-sheeps.
though not the first, but one who really inspire me a lot.
ytd, i heard that caijuan is currently taking care of around 5 people.
2 were quite stable.
Like abraham, i got the first sheep when i'm "old".
also, they started to outreach to people as well.
that's something which left me in agape of god's faithfulness!

-renn-

a week had passed.

hereby, i declared that the battle is over! wahaha.

i dont really want to think about it already.

i know i've done my best although i know i may not score well due to some stupid mistakes.

but all these are over.

why spend time to probe about it?

-

just came back from the church anniversary.

well, the service was great.

you got to see all ages of people praising and worshipping God as a whole body of Christ.

also, the hall is big. REAL BIG~ haha

another thing is that i got to see adult receiving Christ.

it's quite rare for a youth to see adult receiving Christ because we hardly met.

when adult pray for nb, you can see the nb is so filled with faith.

this can be quite not common in youth but not rare too. ( i donno what i'm talking about)

aiya. nvm.

anyway, i just want to thank God for the deco, musician, choir, usher, and other who taking part in organising this.

-

here are some pictures we took.

jing jing. huijuan. caijuan. the two that had impacted my life. the two that God showed his faithfulness to me. the two that made me still believe that street sharing Christ still works and the two that at times made me panic and worried. they are none other than my ex-sheeps.

while on my way home, i went through all the things that God had bring me to who i am.

from the day i born, God had dropped certain small things which i had never notice,

and trying to bring me back to Him.

since i joined Hope, i've grown and had ever started to experience lots of up and down.

however, when i recalled,

i realised that when i'm at the brink to fall away,

His arm is there, opened to catch me.

This is you God!

-

also, i had a breakthrough!

God challenged me to throw away certain things.

these things i've kept long and sort of a momento.

to others, look normal.

to me, is satanic.

to throw away, i think i really need a big courage

but yep yep, is gone now.

feel hurt but i know it will be like pulling out a bad tooth,

pain at first but not pain later, instead feel better.

I'm gonna use it to fill it with God's goodness.

I want God to overflow my god-shaped hole in me!

.

.

"When I said, "My foot is slipping," your love, O Lord, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul. "- Psalm 94:18-19

.

-renn-

i had an overnight study with jeslin's cg people at west mac.
well, it wasn't really effective not just because of tiredness but people not obeying the law.
i just don't understand why people still smoke in public places when the law has banned it.
also, none of the crew in mac came out to stop those people.
well, i think that even such laws are there, i think singapore wont even bother to care about it.
for example, bringing in chewing gums and littering.
all the fines and punishment doesn't seems to control singaporeans anymore.
i think the funnniest thing about banning of smoking in public places
is that the notice they put.
the word LOOK HERE is so big and yet the "no smoking" sign is so small.
i dont think singaporean would bother to LOOK "HERE".

i went home at 5.am.
however,somehow i couldn't get a good rest.
perhaps, the time for me to sleep had passed.

ok. going to get some rest now.

-renn-

i'm making a snap post before going to bathe.
Well, i think today studying was not so successful.
i didn't study much.
i think what i need in this prelim are strength and miracles from God.
strength to study
and miracles to do well.

anyway, i've made a new fren today. wahaha.
she's claudia's friend called cheryl yip. shawn yip's sis.
this girl really knows a lot of friends.
if you think that i know a lot of friends,
well, i think the number of friends she knows is twice as mine.
woah~ however, i should really admit that the world is round.
you would definitely realise that the friend you know is also one of your friend's friend.
indeed, some of the friend i know happen to know her too.
what's more? she's my ex school mate's sister.
it's indeed a small small world:)

i like today's cg.
finally we have a proper cg although li ting and kangli wasn't here.
they're sick.
to kl and lt,"pls take good care of yourself!!"
well, i have fun this cg and i think that we are starting to be more caring.
i really hope that this continue and i believe it will if everyone makes the effort.
yup yup!

-renn-

i was reading someone's blog and what he wrote really suprised me.
He came out with some formula.
eg.
God+ Love=Me
God+ Forgiveness=Me
God+Grace=Me

initially, it sound correct to me.
However, be said it was all wrong because..
God is LOVE, filled with GRACE and MERCY.
all this is within Him.
nothing could be added anymore nor any will be taken away.
This is my God!
Even if i change, He'll still the same.
so i think maybe the equation can be..
God= Love -->Me!
in sentence..God loves Me~:)

I simply love my Dad~

-renn-

this morning, i dragged my feet out of the bed.
i'd kept snoozing my alarm clock but one phone call from yin ling really woke me up.
i didn't expect that she'd called.
since she had called, then i have no choice but to wake up since she made the effort.

i met my cg members to study in the morning.
well, i managed to study around 4 hours today.
compared to yesterday, i think it was a great achievement for me. lol
i didn't manage to study much ytd.
simply because i'm in a holiday mood!
i want my holiday!
BUT i know this is super impossible.
Next week is my second part of my prelim.
Really, i dont have any confident to score better than mid year.
i'm afraid that history repeat.
No matter how much i study, i think that i still dont have to confidence that i will score.
nevertheless, i'll trust in God.
Not on a good result, but my future.

something which really encouraged me was to see other young people serving God.
I was study in east mac today and beside my table were two guy.
when they talk about the bible, a detector in my ear immediately shut off the noise from the surrounding and listen only to what they say.
one thing that struck me was what one of them said, "your spiritual life is inter-connected with you evangelise."
I think i've heard this but never had i really took note of it.
perhaps, God used them to tell me?
also, they were some bible flipping thing and i listen to some too. haha
two words to say:

I BENEFITTED!!

muahahas

[Jere 29:11]

-renn-

I think his hair is better now. At least can spike now.

At the dinner, Jia yun was there!!I have not seen her for many years and she had become prettier. Somehow, i think she looks a bit like a mixed-blood girl.

here are some of the picture we'd taken.

Third shot

After the kiss from the beauty, it was much better but not enought=P

Last shot

* Picture real, but they are just friends* [Dun have other thoughts ah. If not, they'll come to look for me with a chopper!=S]

Another goup. One from RI, another from TKGS.

another shot.

*Again, they're just friends.*

After so much of crapping, here are some pictures that we took.

After going to TM, some of us went to Amanda's house. Last picture of the day.

I can see there everyone are still the same but the feeling is different.

Everyone has really grown up and the path we are going to becoming further apart

( such as JJ will become the minister of eduction. He said, " I enjoy learning knowledge." *Jaw dropped*)

but I know that not that not going to chang our friendship rite?

I really cherish this friendship because it's only the time in primary school when we dont really have much quarrels.

Honestly speaking, i think i have communication difficulty with heng zhong because we are super diferent.

He is good in english but i'm not.

I'm good in chinese but he's not.

When talking to him, i will try to make sure that there's no grammar mistakes but i think i made it worst. It seems that i cant communicate in english with him.

However, there's one topic which i think i am able to communicate better(though there are some problem with my language) with him and that is JESUS!

Powerful huh?

Now i really think that no matter where you are,

no matter how different you are with the another person,

as long as God is in your life,

you can simply relate with the person because of the same heartbeat, the same Father.=D

Hope to you all after O level at the gathering which will be organised by KJJ.

Got anything ask him! =P.

Take care and keep in touch always okie?

All the best for your O level.

-renn-

i've got back some of my premlim paper.
well, not so good but so far, it's better than mid year.
praise god!

morning, i realised of how faithful god is in keeping His promises.
something which i used to believe when i'm looking for my first sheep
is that God will make me fruitful like Abraham.
indeed, when i was about to step down,
god used to me reach out to my ex-sheeps.
though not the first, but one who really inspire me a lot.
ytd, i heard that caijuan is currently taking care of around 5 people.
2 were quite stable.
Like abraham, i got the first sheep when i'm "old".
also, they started to outreach to people as well.
that's something which left me in agape of god's faithfulness!

-renn-

this morning, i dragged my feet out of the bed.
i'd kept snoozing my alarm clock but one phone call from yin ling really woke me up.
i didn't expect that she'd called.
since she had called, then i have no choice but to wake up since she made the effort.

i met my cg members to study in the morning.
well, i managed to study around 4 hours today.
compared to yesterday, i think it was a great achievement for me. lol
i didn't manage to study much ytd.
simply because i'm in a holiday mood!
i want my holiday!
BUT i know this is super impossible.
Next week is my second part of my prelim.
Really, i dont have any confident to score better than mid year.
i'm afraid that history repeat.
No matter how much i study, i think that i still dont have to confidence that i will score.
nevertheless, i'll trust in God.
Not on a good result, but my future.

something which really encouraged me was to see other young people serving God.
I was study in east mac today and beside my table were two guy.
when they talk about the bible, a detector in my ear immediately shut off the noise from the surrounding and listen only to what they say.
one thing that struck me was what one of them said, "your spiritual life is inter-connected with you evangelise."
I think i've heard this but never had i really took note of it.
perhaps, God used them to tell me?
also, they were some bible flipping thing and i listen to some too. haha
two words to say:

I BENEFITTED!!

muahahas

[Jere 29:11]

-renn-